the malaise


Ramblings

‚The world is not more than a disc, anyway’ said everybody and Galileo Galilei proved them wrong. ‘The moon is unattainable, anyway’ said everybody and Neil Armstrong proved them wrong. ‘We are fine, anyway’ said everybody and the world will prove them wrong.   That is the structure of the human mind. We had the […]

January 27, 2019

epilogue


Ramblings

There’s a German saying that goes: “No master has ever fallen from heaven”. That is very true for a lot of things. It is also true for writing.   365 days is a long time. In some ways, it seems like it was only yesterday that I wrote down my little list of new year’s […]

December 30, 2018

home (again)


Ramblings

The last time I went to London, I was with my mum. We were staying at a nice hotel and London was just this dreamy city, this chunk of people and places and houses and stories that I was only allowed to visit on occasion, peek in for a short weekend before I had to […]

December 16, 2018

soot


Ramblings

You are breathing fire, a phoenix risen from the embers reborn and yet the same as always; strong and dark and clever and good.   You are breathing fire because it has been spreading in your lungs a small spark planted there when you were born, feeding on all the small and big injustices that […]

December 9, 2018

autumn


Ramblings

London in autumn is a strange kind of beauty. Skies are blue and endless, marred only by the yellow leaves imprinted on them by the old oak trees in Regent’s Park. I live in an old brownstone block, the windows of my flat have white frames and red bricks framing the round end and sometimes […]

November 11, 2018

the queendom


Ramblings

that was something unheard of before but then she was crowned queen and she decided that a kingdom befitted a king and so would a queendom a queen which is what she called her speck of earth   and her people planted peonies on their windowsills and welcomed wayfaring strangers, and paupers, and kings alike […]

October 21, 2018

home


Ramblings

I’m moving out this week. Only for a little while, one semester, so it kind of slipped my notice. But the fact remains; I’ll be moving out soon. I’ll call a different place my home. Letters that are addressed to me will now carry an English street name, one that I’m not used to yet. […]

September 9, 2018

the elsewhere of ‘a’


Ramblings

In space, any possible event can be placed into three classes; events after a certain event A (from which light emanates in ever-growing circles, building a light cone) and events before that event A which are in the inverted “past” light cone leading to A. And then there’s the third, called the elsewhere of A. […]

August 5, 2018

the rescue


Ramblings

I’ll be home when the blackbirds sing and the sun rises in the evening   I’ll be home when I walk on the sky and earth is hanging above us when the mountains go inwards and the seas are upended when the stars are dark and the whole firmament blazing with gold   I’ll be […]

July 29, 2018

babylon


Ramblings

When humankind felt they had done all there was to do on earth and wanted to come closer to God than they ever had before, it was decided that they would build a miracle, a tower so high and mighty, it would reach into heaven and they would come to know God, and thus be […]

June 10, 2018

the gardener


Ramblings

A river is a river is a river is a river. It can not help it. It can not change its course, decide on a whim to start streaming upwards. A river is a river is a river is a river. But we are not. We are our own gardener, we know where we need […]

June 3, 2018

the place


Ramblings

do you know the place where thistles grow, and lilies, too?   do you know the place where aching is inevitable, and so is its reward; newfound hope?   do you know the place where love is boundless, and so is death?   do you know the place where darkness reigns, and so does light? […]

May 20, 2018

animals


Ramblings

Whoever it was that made the mountains tall and the stars far-away and bright must have known about beauty and life, and the strangeness of it all. How come there’s an earth so perfectly tailor-made for every little being to co-exist; there’s the bees, which live their own little busy lives, with social ladders to […]

April 22, 2018

the perennial magic of cinemas (& movies)


Ramblings

I forgot how much I love going to the cinema. In the past few weeks I’ve seen three films from this award season and each time I walked out of the movie theatre in somewhat of a daze, asking myself why the hell I hadn’t done this for so long. The great movies themselves aside, […]

March 25, 2018